" Kyu-kurarin " song

LYRICS

Jumping loud, I wail out

Glancing time is, ticking down

Surely, surely, staring back at me

8 oclock has waved goodbye to leave

Face gone pale, I wail out

Glad that everything simmers down

Pink I think, the flowers blooming free

Beat, the heat

enduring through the peace

But surely there’s a bud that

struggles yet to bloom, it’s

Bound together and barely breaking

Oh what a fool, a tragedy

Ahh, let me freeze into a fossil

Ahh, like the little flower pot I'll

Smile, there in the darkest days

It’s all I ever managed anyway

I’ll never banish all the loneliness

If it’s discovered,

what’ll happen to this?

Ahh, I’m here, your

neighbor waiting for you!

My heart, it beats up anew

Hey when, I tumble asleep

And I wake up to the beat

I can never retrieve

A cause to leave

Or to get up and be

What morning me will need

Is there a peace

Left for me?

Jumping loud, I wail out

Glancing time is, ticking down

Backing up I turn away to leave

“See you then…” I mumble in the heat

Clarity had found me

First, beating joy or pretty feelings

Reminiscing, sun way out of reach

Passing by, these days

adrift at sea, it’s

Horribly hard, just managing

Ahh, soon you’ll see

the truth of the act

Ahh, God I hope to stay in tact I’ll

Smile, faking again this time

All that I love will

always leave my side

I wish for a future so clear and bright

While feeling ever more

I’m being eaten alive

And now, I cry but

couldn’t manage to scream

My heart refuses to beat

...

Ahh, surely there’s a sky prismatic

Ahh, alive and shining a pretty light

I had never wanted just to run away

Surely, these things all

each belong in place

Right, nothing more is left to do

My heart, it beats up anew

So, it seems, the days

are closing in around me

And the flowers bud that slowly withered

So putrid, it’s a filthy repulsive thing

Innocent, sweet

Ahh, let me turn into a curse just

Ahh, “Stop it and erase

the burden” I cry

Cause beating around my head

Noise and the static

sound is all that’s left

I’ll never banish all the loneliness

If it’s discovered,

what’ll happen to this?

Ahh, the girl, it seems

was right as could be

I’ll never see it…

Ahh, I’ll find a way to keep on going

Ahh, pain is never stopping or slowing

Even when it’s all wasted breath

Such is the penance for your loveliness

You may be the kindest

that I’ve ever known

If I cry and hug you, I may never let go

The final scene was

surely that kind of dream

My heart escapes in the breeze

MEANING 

Behind the kyu kurarin song, there's a deep meaing to it. Kyu-kurarin is about a depressed teenage girl who forces herself to keep smiling for the sake of others. She struggles to keep going, and finds herself unable to keep up the act as her symptoms wear on her. The ending shows her crying to someone she loves, who hugs her in return, but it is ambiguous whether it really happened.

Some theories said that the song represent a character named sayori from doki doki lirature club. because shortly before the song’s release, Iyowa tweeted that he would like to make a song about her.